my week.

last wednesday: found a large lump in my neck & got an appointment. they thought that the lymph node was the only node in your whole body you don't want enlarged.

last thursday: had an mri & found out they couldn't tell if it was cancerous or not

last friday: got biopsy #1.

tuesday: found out they only collected muscle tissue.

thursday: had another biopsy... a more painful biopsy.

finally...
today found out it was a hemangioma (a begnin tumor of a collection of blood vessels).

no cancer. coming on the 2 1/2 mark of losing my pops, it has been a really hard week. i have learned so much about myself. i have prayed so much it is amazing. beth, my lovely sister-in-law, told me to memorize james 1-2 (or she said she did when she had a biopsy last year)... so that & philippians 4 & a few verses in psalms is all i have read this last week.

'consider it pure joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. and let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing. but if any of you lacks wisdom, let him ASK of God who gives to all generoulsy and without reproach, and it will be given to him. BUT he must ask in FAITH without any doubting, for the one who dobuts is like the surf of the sea, driven and tossed by the wind. for that man ought not to expect that he will receive anything from the Lord, being a double-minded man, unstable in all his ways.'

this week i have considered my trial a joy, not because i wanted to have a lack of sleep, to be afraid i was going to get the worse case senario, or because i wanted to cry almost the entire week. but i consider it joy because of how much i was physically able to be on my knees. to cry out for help to the LORD. even if it had turned out to be worse, then i still would have gained the entire experience...with just a little extra trial. praise the LORD it was nothing. it has been a long week. i need some sleep.