Sunday, June 21, 2009

fathers day.


dad,

i woke up this morning feeling a little bit lonely. which was ironic because laying next to me was todd, ashlynn and jeremy. we had our cuddle time. i realized that i wasn't physically lonely, just lonely because i wanted to pick up and dial your phone number. to tell you happy fathers day. to let you know that i love more than i can describe. to remind you that you are the best dad in the whole wide world. i wanted to come down and have a bar-b-que with you. i wanted to go to the beach and walk along the sand. i wanted to lay next to you on the couch. to laugh and cry with you. i wanted to get advise from you. i just wanted you.

since i couldn't call, i prayed. i thanked GOD for allowing me to have you for the time that i did. i praised HIM for allowing you to be the one that was perfect for me. the one that GOD saw fit to raise me. i thanked the LORD for the fact that you taught me to follow the LORD. to appreciate HIS word. to look to HIM in all my darkness, in my joy, in my fear, in my anything. i am better because of you... because you were the one who first directed me to JESUS. your advice still sticks with me. i am only sad that i won't get anymore of it. but i will pass on what you gave me. the love you gave to me. the love for you showed me that only the LORD can provide.

so today, i celebrate you while you enjoy our heavenly Fathers presence. i celebrate your life. the life that i feel was cut so short, but was exactly how the LORD wanted it. i rejoice in your 60 1/2 years of life and your 31 years & 2 days as a father to tony, bri & i. i love you dad & miss you so much today. it is almost your birthday & i know they will have fireworks for you. i can't wait!

i love you triple.

sum

6 comments:

joy said...

love you, summer. beautiful letter to your dad. :)

Sheila said...

wow summer. Father's Day was a little lonely for me too even though it's been 2 1/2 years but it's hard to put into words. What an encouraging post. Still thinking of you and praying for you and all the "firsts" without him here. Excited to see you again down in SLO this fall. Love, Sheila

The Murphy Family said...

wiping away tears...

Renelle and Cole said...

goodness gracious. absolutely beautiful! love you!

Eli said...

Whenever I'm on the internet, I have a list of sites that I go to... My email is always first, then Facebook, sometimes Twitter, and then your blog. So I pretty much check this like two or three times a day. Did you know that? Kinda crazy. But it's always really encouraging and I like how you write your posts, cuz I can totally hear you saying it. Good stuff. Anyways, for what it's worth, just thought I'd throw that out there. Have an great day!

Rooted Studios said...

oh my word, i am very moved. i love you sum.